There’s a day coming where we can go outside without a mask on. The Lone Ranger would not like that. A day when the stress will be gone. A day where we can get close to our loved ones, where we can great each other with a hug and a Holy kiss. these are strange times indeed. I have never believed i would see such a thing as this. No toilet paper or fresh hamburger. Where we plan our meals so we can have an abundance of leftovers for the week. Work, who would believe that i of all people would be an essential employee. On the front lines, delivering medical equipment to those that are in need. It all doesn’t seem real. This is not how i imagined it would be. Sure who doesn’t enjoy an end of the world movie, a disaster flick. action and adventure around every corner, one perilous catastrophe after another, with a nick of time escape. What do we do, sit at the window and watch our neighbors get close to each other. Wondering when this unseen enemy is going to strike.
In the mix of it all we are at the time of Easter. The time when the Lord thought of us and our freedom. How he takes care of us. I am amazed that i and my wife are ones to continue working. He has supplied us with an abundance of necessities. My wife couponed for years and created a stock pile, i feel like God started to meet our needs way back then. He nudged us to go shopping and load up our freezers twice before all this took place. He still continues to meet our needs. Showing us where to cut back, and what we do have. We have a home, electricity, running water and so on. I think he even put the right people in place for such a time as this.
At times i feel so undeserving or worried or stressed. you never know what’s around each corner or when the next shoe is going to drop. Stress and worry are just cheap budget items from hell anyway. Why not choose to be happy and joyful, be thankful. there is so much that is out of our control. I feel like part of being a christian is for such a time as this. to instill hope, to encourage and to pray. I can see how easy it would be to fall into the enemies hands and his traps. We need each other more than ever, and we need to support and encourage one another, daily. I know i like to hear good things about myself, who doesn’t. I am easily stress and have this habit of worrying. Anxiety is not too far behind either. I am not sure when they started coming around, but it seems like they have been there a long time. Yes, i am also insecure. what a lethal combination. it would drive most people crazy, and i probably do. There are good days too.
That’s probably why God invaded my life one day. He knew that i would need Him. and then some. I wasn’t much of a challenge for God’s brilliance. He just showed up one night at a small church i went to and said, I choose you and now you are mine. The next week in worship He revealed himself to me, I will never forget the vision i had. The Lord hovered right above me and it was so real. I just worshiped even more. he never said get your act together and follow me, come as you are, you are just right. So i did. Then i think i got thrown into a closet and beaten up, and i think i am still getting beat up. It’s like how much longer are going to do this god thing. one trial after another, at times i can forget what joy is or what it is like to be happy. i just shake my head and wonder why. I go to bed and hope for a goodnight’s sleep and sometimes i get woken up and work invades my thoughts, it’s times like this i just turn to prayer, sometimes it helps me to get back to sleep. i love the nights that i dream deep colorful dreams. dreams with meaning and purpose behind them. I hope they are from God. A lot of dreams about building. i am not sure what is going on, but i trust God. who else has life and hope.
Just so you know, you are doing a good job, you do matter and you are important. God has you and he won’t let you go. sure there are going to be tough days, but there is more good days coming. Mercy and grace are going to follow you all of the days of your life. You are loved and nothing can take that away.