God-conscious…


One day you wake up and wonder.  Life has passed by like a rocket. I feel older than I am. I feel like I am living in a perpetual state of arthritis. I feel like I am that old guy, “get off my lawn”. I see more and more misunderstanding going on. People who take your own words and actions and twist them into some distorted perversion of that I am having a bad life. Last week some old guy came in and went on and on about leftover medical supplies and if we took them back. I explained that i could not, but suggested that He could donate them.  Then He must have thought that i wanted to strike up a conversation about waste of unopened supplies. Again I had to explain that I could not take them back. I suggested that maybe he should donate them to the senior center. He told me he tried that and as he was finally leaving I said, “good luck”. My meaning behind it was one of success. I could clearly see his intention of wanting to help some one out. I then proceeded to turn back to answering the phone that rang five different times while i devoted my intention to him.

A few days later this elderly gentlemen peers into my co-workers window and sees she is there and sneaks into speak to her. He then tells his version of the story and how he seen me as a pain in the ass, all because I said good luck. Because I could not help him. Our policy is that once something is given to a patient, it is their’s. I cannot take back an unopened medical supply.  The point being is that there is too much judgement without knowing all the facts. I was actually hurt a little.  What are you to do? At times i feel like people have ruined life. It is hard enough being an introvert in this world.  Your actions seem to be misinterpreted quite often. I wonder how often we do not understand someone elses thought process. I think people are to easily offended when it comes to the truth. I feel like I want to go and hide in a cave. I can go days without human interaction. I am thankful that I do not always see things the way others do. It is a real privilege in this day and age to be different.

Being introverted is a blessing.  I can embrace a passion for something that cannot be satisfied and leave mu hungry for more. My love of God is this way. I can go from being afraid that I hurt His feelings to climbing up on His lap and crying like a little baby. I think I am always God-conscious. Aware of what’s going on and i do not want to miss a thing. I want to be a part and experience everything that is about Him. I want to know that I know. Then I am baffled when others are not that way. When others allow life to control their emotions and footsteps. When others speak without consequences or validity behind their words.  Maybe I am being too judgmental here. Is it too much to live in a world were we put others first? There is always whaling and gnashing of teeth now. Where the dollar is put first, it truly  is an all about me, dog eat dog world and who ever ends up with all the toys at the end wins and makes up all the rules.  I am just sitting here back in the corner wondering about when i get to go home.

You don’t have to jump on every latest fad, or follow who or what is trending. You have permission to be yourself. What if everyone else is wrong and you are not. You do not have to always defend your position. God will set a feast before you in front of your enemies. He will guide you and sometimes you just have to wait. No one has a corner on God. He is not a commodity to be bought and sold. He is my friend.

In the waiting room…..


I’ve had writers block for some time. Plus my attitude has been in a bad way. All I have seen is negative. People who are in it for themselves. People who are teaching me how not to be. Now I got up at stupid o’clock to drive my wife four and a half hours to see her mother at the hospital.  It needed to be done. The hospital where there are a bunch of people who need life. Some need a smile, a kind word something to give them hope. It would be hard for me to work here. I wouldn’t know what color scrubs to wear. People come here to get healed, to get some sort of hope, to maybe get another shot at life. Maybe to get restore a little.  To be honest it just feels like a few angels need to come in here and shake some joy into this place.  I watched the same guy push a broom around in a circle for ten minutes, not once did he smile.  Don’t people know that the joy is down in them, just waiting to burst out?  There is so much to be grateful for. There so much life deep inside us that needs to be unleashed. Instead I see people who refuse to be joyful.  People who think that being miserable is the lifestyle for them and if they aren’t happy neither should anyone else be.  

    People watching is an interesting pastime of an introvert such as myself.  We are all in our own little world surrounded by our own thoughts.  We make judgements on the way we think things ought to be from our own internal perspective. If we are not happy we judge out of that. If weare happy we base it out of that.   If we are controlling we base our judgement out of that.  So without knowing another persons life story, or how they think, we base a judgement on how it makes me look or feel.  So if I think something should be one way and try to project my thought process onto you without caring how it makes you feel, I am in the wrong.  I try to respect the way everyone feels. Some just get their kicks out of crossing that line because their vision is so narrow minded. Some just fail to look at a bigger picture. When Jesus told the disciples. That it was better for him to go, they thought he was wrong. Then the Holy Spirit came around and they say the Jesus was right. There are a lot people who are prechristian.  I’ll be glad when they get it. 

     My wife and I were having a discussion the other night about getting to know people   I told her that she took a chance on my weird nature to get to know me. It has taken her thirty years to know me and that knowledge is continuing to grow daily.  She knows more about me than I probably know about myself. She knows how to talk to me about the way things should be done. She knows that I need to know the how’s and whys and the what nots in things. We should not just make assumptions with each other or tell someone this is how it is, without taking account the feelings of someone else. We do things in life because it is important to someone else. People are important and they matter. We all have something to learn from each other, not something to prove. Jesus came to set the captives free, some people are not happy unless the put you in some form of bondage. No weapon formed against shall prosper.  There really is a privilege growing old with someone. There is also a blessing when someone let’s you into their inner world.  Jesus dwells inside each one of us, some need to let Him out more often, or look inside themselves a little more.  Your angel is pleading with God that you will get it.  David could have killed Saul and instantly became King. He cut off a piece of his robe and later showed him and told him that he could of killed him. That’s the kind of integrity I want to live in.  

    

Data, Introverts and Boot Camp…


I can’t believe i live in an age where I am worried about the data. We have less than a half a gig left and 12 hours to go. We usually don’t have this stress, but my number one son decided he needed a new phone and alas, one of his apps secretly uses data in the back ground without you even knowing it. Well thank God we caught it before it made an enormous bill that I did not want to pay. There’s nothing like living on the edge. We live in a day and age where you take your phone with you wherever you go, taking pictures of random things, see who is doing what on social media, order our lunch from it and tweet a picture of it to someone who is paying attention to what i am doing in life. I hate being a slave to the phone and except when I am on call, try to leave it at home.  Then I get angry when I call someone on their phone and they don’t answer, i can picture them in mind standing there giggling, knowing that it is me on the phone and not answering.

It is not easy being an introvert. Scenarios like that play out in your mind and who could write a sitcom out each and everyone. Only the laugh track is funny in different places, especially when I get to the revenge part of the scene. And believe me there is one. Don’t ever get on the bad side of an introvert, i could kill you off in my mind a thousand ways before you even finish your annoying sentence.  Sometimes the best part is that you don’t even know who is an introvert and who is not. I find that it is just easier to pull away from people than confront them. You can crap on me a thousand times and I will just put up with it after a while I just get full and explode. So hey,  just be nice from the get go. There is no reason to be an ass and just assume that you have the right to think that I really don’t know anything. I am polite and a gentleman, you just can not judge and think that you know something that you don’t. Over confidence has been some people’s down fall.  Just be nice to everyone, you do not know what they are going through.  Matthew 19,   “Another day, a man stopped Jesus and asked, “Teacher, what good thing must I do to get eternal life?”    Jesus said, “Why do you question me about what’s good? God is the One who is good. If you want to enter the life of God, just do what he tells you.”  The man asked, “What in particular?” Jesus said, “Don’t murder, don’t commit adultery, don’t steal, don’t lie, honor your father and mother, and love your neighbor as you do yourself.”The young man said, “I’ve done all that. What’s left?”“If you want to give it all you’ve got,” Jesus replied, “go sell your possessions; give everything to the poor. All your wealth will then be in heaven. Then come follow me.” “   I wonder about loving yourself. Have you ever seen the way some people treat others? They must really beat themselves up when no one is looking. I know I can go a few rounds with myself pretty good.

I love it when I have dreams. It is better than watching the television. Last night I was in boot camp again. I was there in real life thirty years ago, and I hated it. The training and knowledge they pumped into to be a government issue fighting tool. I was rebellious and learned how to drink with the best of them. Well anyway in my dream the training was different. The training was real life for what was to come. My drill instructor actually enjoyed me and made me his favorite student. He said that everything that I am going through now will be worth it for what is to come. You know so much now, and you are applying it well, but there are still things that need to be refined and sharpened.  It seem weird to  be information, new clothes on and with others in training to learn. It was not hard to learn new stuff and everything was taught with love and a purpose behind it. I do not remember what was taught, all I knew is it was for what is to come. i think we all need to be prepared in life. Jesus is my drill instructor and the way He teaches life can be enjoyable. It is could to know that He has been molding me and shaping me since the beginning of time. I just needed to do my part and follow.  You are in God’s army whether you know it or not. There are battles that you are called to fight and win. There are things that you learn when you are in battle. That is why you have armor, not to just protect yourself, but to fight and win.

There truly is joy in the journey if you want it. There is a peace to say no to somethings. It is okay to withdraw from something if you feel led by the Spirit. You can find God in anything if you know how to look for Him. He is everywhere and most of all He loves to just hand out with you. So much sometimes, He invades my dreams to get my attention the most. Troubles will come and go, but His Love for you will never end. You are tha apple of His eye.

 

just venting……


 

You are Christ’s body—that’s who you are! You must never forget this. Only as you accept your part of that body does your “part” mean anything. You’re familiar with some of the parts that God has formed in his church, which is his “body”:

apostles
prophets
teachers
miracle workers
healers
helpers
organizers
those who pray in tongues.

But it’s obvious by now, isn’t it, that Christ’s church is a complete Body and not a gigantic, uni-dimensional Part? It’s not all Apostle, not all Prophet, not all Miracle Worker, not all Healer, not all Prayer in Tongues, not all Interpreter of Tongues. And yet some of you keep competing for so-called “important” parts……1 Corinthians 12:27-31

  I have listen to someone give a talk on the word above. He said that most of these are job descriptions. I have to tend to agree. I am not big on titles because it tends to set someone above another.  It says, Hey, I’m better than you, or I’m important, or i demand your respect because I have a title.   When it comes down to it we will all die and have leave this world.  How you treat people will stand out more to me. It does not give you the right to speak down to people or project that you think that you are better than me. Instead of verbally abusing someone on the other side of the phone, maybe you should express compassion.  I often how some one else’s anger can become my problem.  Being on the customer service side of the phone does not mean that i want to hear you bitch about something that is completely out of my control. How is your problem suddenly mine? To be honest with you, i really don’t care anymore if you are going to chew my ass.  If you think that you can use your title to try and intimidate me, you are dead wrong.

     Sure I will still help you, after all I am called to be Christ like.  I will forgive and help you, but I must confess, it might not be as fast as you want or as convenient as you would like, and i will probably have to answer for that.  I often wonder who gave certain people the right to lord their desires over others.  Money and power must rule the day.  Some people don’t realize that they just add to the reason why introverts like us to avoid people.

     What are you to do but love them the way that they are. You can’t tell them. There seems to be too much foolish pride in the world. We are one body with many parts. We need each part to function. If the hand gets paid more than the mouth does it really matter? how will the mouth get fed without the hand. Yet here we are in a world with hierarchy and pecking orders.  If your title was given to you by God, then it legit, but if you gave it to yourself, well we will see how far it gets you in life. I guess how you treat others is how you wanted to be treated.

 

 

Just thinking out loud……


Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,  fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.  Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart……Hebrews 12

I was reading a book, maybe for the third or fourth time, and the writer talked about the great crowd of witnesses watching over us.  I found myself thinking about the fact that you can not hide your actions, your thoughts or anything from heaven. One day I will have to stand before the King on His throne and watch my life flash before my eyes. I will see how I treated others and what I thought about them. I will see my heart and my motivations. I will see my choices and the results of them. I will see where I chose to love and chose not to. I will see my good days and my bad days. I will see what I did in secret and tried to hide from others. I will see where i hated and where I loved. I will probably cringe and cry and feel bad. The only thing I will be able to say is,”I am sorry, I did those things and please extend me grace”.

I am a Child of the King. I am still learning who I am in Him. He wired me to be an introvert. I am embracing that fact. Actually I find that I am enjoying it. I have my reasons for choosing the things that I do.  I think God will give you more than you can handle. That is how faith grows. I believe that life happens, it is not always fair.  Shit does happen, can you still worship and praise God in the mix of all that. How  you deal with it is important. I don’t always win or get my way, or have ever won a trophy. Life is not always easy and there are times you have to work hard.  You will not always get your way and you not really entitled to anything.

God sees your life from beginning to end. He knows the choices you will make. Yet I am amazed at the grace He extends. How He pursues you and will never leave you. How He can love without expectations is awesome. How the Kingdom is opposite  of the way the world is. The first will be last and the last will be first. How humility is important. God will go through a lot of effort to get you to a place of walking in faith.  you are farther along than what you give yourself credit for. You are doing better than others give you credit for and God expects you to make more mistakes than you can imagine. God cares about you.  You know, I just want to be happy and enjoy life.  I am thankful that God isn’t human, if you know what I mean.

 

bell bottom blues…..


 God didn’t send me out to collect a following for myself, but to preach the Message of what he has done, collecting a following for him. And he didn’t send me to do it with a lot of fancy rhetoric of my own, lest the powerful action at the center—Christ on the Cross—be trivialized into mere words……1 Corinthians 1:17

I’m just a small town kind of a guy. Grew up on a farm, nothing fancy. I like things simple. Sometimes people complicate things and make the going seem harder than it really is. Endless striving and grasping for a place in the world with some sort of stature.  To me it seems like a waste of energy. There really is no promotion in promoting yourself. Giving yourself an unearned title. Giving yourself some power and using it to control and manipulate others. Is that really freedom. The real power is keeping yourself humble and putting others first. If it is all about you, then I’m out. If you are about promoting Jesus, then I am in. Yet people fall for it time and time again. It may sound good in the beginning. People throw their money at some name and they create some mega church or following and then it seems like Jesus is completely out of the picture. It becomes some all about me type of following. I guess it is your choice to follow whatever tickles your fancy.

People will follow blindly what they perceive to be the next latest and greatest thing. You can tell it is true with fashion. Look what the media pumps up. People have killed for tickle me elmos and cabbage patch kids. Bell bottoms used to be the rage. We  are always on the look out for the latest and greatest thing. We want to feel like we belong to some greater purpose, if we fit in like everyone else. Look at me, i have arrived and I finally belong. I must be important. I can follow the latest fashion trend just like everyone else.

Actually I am a blue jean, t-shirt kind of a guy. I like to be myself. Sure I have fallen into traps of following blindly. I also have been warned in dreams about not following some things. I have been wrong before. I also have been glad that I followed my heart, instead of someone else’s. Maybe this is why I do not have too many friends. We all walk a different path and climb different mountains. Hopefully our paths with cross and we will help each other find more of Jesus. I am on my own journey of discovering who I am in Christ. My road is the hard one at times. That is okay, i have the feeling the reward will be worth it. I  have come to the conclusion that if only a couple of people read my stuff, that is a good thing. I want people to see Jesus more than they see me.

I Want to be a Clone…


       I’d gone through so much other stuff,  that walking down the aisle was tough, but now I know it’s not enough, I want to be a clone…….Steve Taylor

noun: freewill 

  1. the power of acting without the constraint of necessity or fate; the ability to act at one’s own discretion.

I have walked with God for over twenty-five years now,, well give or take a year or two. There was a time i walked like a duck and talked like a duck and thought I did all the right things. Did what everyone else did, went to church two to three times a week, led a home group, helped with Sunday school and even was a greeter. I wore the right t-shirts, listened to the latest Christian music, read the newest and latest books. Man, I’m on top of the world. Tithing left and right, helping people move, and so on. I’m in, I figured. I learned to speak Christenese, I’m really a good Christian, look at me, I thought. I am friends with everyone. I am saved. I have a cross hanging on my car, a fish on the back, I am telling everyone I am in Love with Jesus. I have to be doing the right thing.

I asked the Lord into my heart, they said that was the way to start, but now you’ve got to play the part, I want to be a clone….Steve Taylor

Then I started seeing things that made me feel uncomfortable. People who would say one thing, but do another. People who would talk behind another’s back. People who would call the police on a homeless man, rather than help. They would help you, if you were a useful tool in the church. If you served a purpose. If you tithed, if you followed someone else’s dream, blindly. If you gave up your dream to serve another purpose, then your were useful.

Be a clone and kiss conviction goodnight, cloneliness is next to Godliness, right? I’m grateful that they show the way, ’cause I could never know the way, to serve him on my own….I want to be a clone……Steve Taylor

Still there was a different aspect to me. I studied my bible, I went to hear about Christ from different teachers.I was told everything that I needed in Christ is right here at this church.  I wanted more than what the local church was selling, or making me pay for. I started walking out during the sermon to have a cigarette, I was gaze out the window while the guy preached. I watched people walk by and wondered what they thought. There has to be more to this walking with Christ than sitting here listening to some guy ramble about stuff that is not where I am even at,,,,so God told me to leave. It was a hard choice to make for, my whole walk with God started with this place and now I felt I was supposed to leave what my identity was wrapped up in?

They told me that I’d fall away, unless I followed what they say, who needs the Bible anyway?……..I want to be a clone….Steve Taylor

Then I started thinking more about life. Why wouldn’t God want to be apart of my everyday life?  Why do I have to conform and be like everyone else? What if that is where the freedom lies. What if we are still putting ourselves under some form of the law. I shouldn’t do this, or I can’t do that, or what will people say, or you better shape up because God is watching. Look busy cause Jesus is coming. So i dig this hole of shame because I really don’t believe that Jesus came to set me free. So I live under this guilt that others lay on me because they do not know how to walk in freedom either, so if i can’t be free, you shouldn’t be either. So this whole vicious cycle of the shame and blame game starts and i walk around feeling sorry for myself because I forgot that i am not under the law. So I can be quick to judge and I know what is right and what is wrong, because I don’t want to be free. Where is Eve, I need another bite of that apple.

 People get ready, For something like you’ve never seen,,,,Open up your eyes,,,Open up your heart,,,,Open up your arms,,,,And let the Spirit of the Savior set you free….Third Day

 

  • I am referring to the other person’s conscience, not yours. For why is my freedom being judged by another’s conscience? ….1 Corinthians 10:29
  •  Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom…2 Corinthians 3:17
  • It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery….Galatians 5:1

Is it real freedom when someone is trying to control you and manipulate you?  When someone judges your actions? When they think that they know what is best for you, without consulting you?  I am in a good place in my walk. I like to listen to a little rock and roll, watch a good movie and have a cold on once in a while, or more. I like to sleep in on Sunday mornings. Does all that mean I am a bad Christian? Who’s to say. I still talk to God and He talks back. I still depend on Him for life. I still pray quite often. I still need Him. I am still loved by Him. I received a couple of good compliments this week. One friend told me I was a rogue in the church. I took that as a compliment. I see things different, and maybe that is where the freedom lies. Two days later a friend told me this,”We aren’t built for the “church” we are built for the world that is afraid of the church, and for those who have been convinced that they have to have it all together to be effective ministers- that’s a load that no one needs to bear”. This all came after a dream I had.  So I think I am on the right track. So what is coming is going to make some church people kind of mad. That’s okay, because Jesus made those religious freaks mad all those years ago.

I’ve learned enough to stay afloat, but not so much I rock the boat. I’m glad they shoved it down my throat,,,,,,I want to be a clone….Steve Taylor

Your boat is going to be rocked……

 

 

 

Easy like Sunday morning….


 

At that point Peter got up the nerve to ask, “Master, how many times do I forgive a brother or sister who hurts me? Seven?”

Jesus replied, “Seven! Hardly. Try seventy times seven.

“The kingdom of God is like a king who decided to square accounts with his servants. As he got under way, one servant was brought before him who had run up a debt of a hundred thousand dollars. He couldn’t pay up, so the king ordered the man, along with his wife, children, and goods, to be auctioned off at the slave market.

I try to be an easy going kind of guy. I try to let a lot roll off my back and just take some crap from people. I may vent and blow off a little steam and then life goes on. After a while you get tired of taking crap.  What do you do. People don’t understand that two minutes someone unloaded on you and then in the next two minutes another person does and then it accumulates through out the day and you can hardly wait to lock yourself away in the funny farm.  Then people wonder why you feel stressed. you resort to little prayers and moments of solitude. I often wonder how you can believe in God, but still feel like you can control others. Mean while i have to ask for strength to hold back  from lashing out. It is not easy.

So forgiveness, i can do it but I have to admit I get tired of doing it over and over and over. I often wonder if people intentionally poke the bear to see of they will forgive. Is it a power struggle? Is it that they are lacking something in their own life?  Why do people try to make others miserable. I thought we are supposed to help each other. Sure I have to admit I have problems with people. I hate to seeing the way some treat others, use others, or take advantage of them. There is always a pecking order. Maybe it is just the fact it is Monday.

Toxic people, what do you do with them? Where do you draw the line? Why do we keep letting them in, you know that they are going to pull that crap again. Only with God can people change. It seems like I have a lot of problems with people. Maybe I am the one who is wrong. It seems like I am always the one with issues. What about when some one offends me, am i wrong or in the wrong Spirit? Why does it seem like I am always the one with the issues. What if they are wrong and I am not. What if I took what others in the wrong context, but you can tell by their actions, their body language, and the look on their face, that I am right. So you build a wall, it is just not worth getting attacked again.

Have you ever read, “The Final Quest”, by Rick Joyner, there is one time in his dream where the Christians were trying to climb the a mountain. There were some who helped others achieve their goal to get higher, and there were some Christians who seemed to help, but they had these demons puking on them. In turn they were puking on others and they didn’t even know it. I think this goes on more than a person knows. Just because you know who Jesus is it doesn’t mean the work is done. It is not one prayer then done. It takes work just like everything else. You need to put effort into it, you will only go as far as you are willing to pursue. Work out your salvation with fear and trembling.

Thanks for listening to me ramble, some provide good fodder for blogging and they don’t even know it. I will continue to forgive, but i will withdraw to a safe distance. Maybe even put up a wall. Why keep on getting stabbed. Is not life to short to keep getting burned? Some times you just give it all to God and let Him work it out.

my daylight saving rant…..


Daylight savings time. I hate it. Being forced to change your clocks. It seems like it goes against the laws of nature. Now my mind knows what time it is, but my body says it is a different time. If I go back to bed, I won’t be able to sleep tonight. I am stuck. Time, the one thing you never seem to have enough of. I have to think that time is more precious than money. You could always get more money, but you can never get more time. Once it is gone, it is gone. Then you spend some of your time trying to get more money. Then you end up spending your money having someone else do something for you, in order to save you some time. Are we really getting ahead here? You either have one or the other. What about wasting time, is there really such a thing? Why do we spend more time working, than I do at home. Well sure I spend eight hours sleeping, so it looks like I am at home more than I am at work. But it feels like I am at work more than I am at home. Then why is it that I only have a weekend off and have to work for a week? So I have to spend my time helping some people who are not even grateful in the first place. I also spend my time, making some one who I have never met, money so they can spend their time doing something that they enjoy more than work. This whole system seems backwards. You probably just spent five minutes of your time reading this rant.

It is not really a rant, it is more of an expression of how I see life. We spend our time making money and then we gamble that we will have enough to retire without dying first. Then we end up being to old to do anything, or too broke to be able to do anything. This all sounds like a boring and meaningless life to me. Why not enjoy life now. Why put up with crap to make a few pieces of paper with some numbers on. Oh, I need a house and a car and I need heat and water and electricity. I need that big television that feeds me nothing but crap, and a big chair to sit in so I am comfortable insisting more time. I need the internet to write a blog that someone else will waste their time reading.  Gee, I hope my blogs aren’t a waste of time. I guess how you spend your time is important to you. We are all allotted twenty-four hours in a day. We probably sleep for eight, if you are lucky. We may work for eight, so that leaves you eight hours for yourself. What are you going to do with that time?  Make sure you spend it wisely. It seems like life is short enough and goes by to quickly. There is never enough time to do the things I want to do. I have to take vacation to do what I want to do. Which is nothing. I like to do a lot of nothing. I like to go with the flow, and I am not talking about society either. To be free spirited, to have the freedom to come and go as you please.

So don’t waste your time worrying, or living in anxiety. It is just not worth it. It can make your time here shorter. Take time for yourself. Do something you enjoy. You have the right to be happy. God created you to enjoy life. Get rid of those things that make you miserable. Get away from people who suck the life out of you.  God did not say to go off and enjoy your misery. He said to have joy. I want to live in joy. I want to spend my time being happy. So if you are not happy or crabby, keep that over there. Don’t be bringing that negative crap into my space. It seems that we spend so much time caught up in the world, that we forget that we are all spiritual beings trying to find our way through this life. We get mad when someone inconveniences us, or won’t help or spends our time for us. Is it just me or do people not take the time to see the needs in others, or even get a sense of how they tick. I feel that people know me, but they really don’t know me. They know just what they want to know on the surface and that is it. I enjoy those who take the time to really know you. That is time well spent. I have taken time over the years and read and reread some of the same bible stories over and over. I wonder what they were thinking and how they felt. We live in the a world were taking the time to go deeper with people has been replace with surface feelings. Where using people to benefit our own needs has become normal. The art of conversation, has it died? If you are just going to talk about yourself, your exploits, or how great you are, that is not conversation. That is just boasting. As an introvert, that is boring. Small talk can just suck the life out of me and i feel like it is a waste of time.

What you do with your time is your business. What goals and dreams you have is what you will spend your time on. What seems to be important to you is where you will spend your time. Life is short, pursue what is in your heart. God only knows how much time we have here so spend it wisely.  I do have eternity to look forward to.