Freedom Baby……

this still applies…..

Joe's Garage Logic

I have had a sense these past few days that too many of us have been living in some sort of fear. Fear of the future, or a fear of some enemy. This is not good people. It is not a place that God wants you to live. He talks about it quite a bit in His word. But first, what is fear: “adistressingemotionarousedbyimpendingdanger,evil,pain,etc.,whetherthethreatisrealorimagined” . The television is good at instilling this into us. Sure they think it is news, but people bite on it and run with it in their imagination and the next thing you know they are hiding in their closets. Now with the internet, you can almost see it happening before it even happens. Fear can spread like wildfire, one little seed can contaminate a whole community. It can…

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HELP!!

I haven’t written anything in a while. I’ve been caught up in the whole conspirator hype that has been going on. At times i think an over powering flood of information is bad for you. You don’t know what too think or who to trust. In the meantime it is time to find a job. I just don’t want any old job, i want one where i fit in, where i am happy and people are happy with me. So i am asking for prayer. If you get a word great, if you get direction, great. Give me something. At times i am not sure what is up.

TRUMP ODE TO THE CORPORATION!

excellent

THE MARSHALL REPORT

D.C. is fenced off and the President is never going back to the White House. But not for reasons you may be thinking.

Fear not, there will be a new capitol built and an end to income taxes paid to the tax collectors of the Corporation that is now in the hands of a new administration. They went to all the trouble to steal a corporation whose assetts are in the process of being seized. Most did not see this coming for they did not even know their nation was a Corporation. But, it is indeed but now, no more are the states subject to it. Please read on to understand the nature of the battle we are in.

Meet the thieves in the light of day. So proudly they claim what is not theirs to take…or is it?

In 1871 a sedious act was performed by the Government. A…

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Still crazy after all these years….

I am not sure how others think or feel about life in general. I can only speak for myself. At times it seems so frustrating. I can miss the meaning of so many things people say, or even how they act. i can run with it in a thousand directions and completely send myself into a tizzy. I wonder how i have even made it in life this far. everyday releases new challenges and a whole new list of impossibilities that can send you into a whirlwind of insecurity. I can over analyze better than Freud. it is a wonder i am even sane at all. what is being sane anyway? Why does one go through so much, what is going on here? I have no one to blame but myself. Only I am responsible for my thoughts and actions. I am the one that needs to let go of all the baggage that i have been carrying since God knows when. I think that is why i have all this grey hair. It is a wonder how one gets around in life with a wheelbarrow full of problems and you are trying to fix them on your own. Hoping for some relief around the next corner only to find another stack to add to your pile. Then the load gets heavier and heavier and you are trying to find your way in the fog. Then you try to fix it on your own and you feel like it is only getting worse and worse. you put a smile on your face and pretend things are going fine, while deep down you wonder how did i get here. You try to get right with God and dig deeper and you get beat up. you pick yourself up and try again. Meanwhile back at base camp in your mind, you fight with self worth, you wonder how can anyone like some one like myself and you feel the only answer is to run away. run to where? i think i have wanted to run away my whole life. you try to please people or help, just to have a friend. then you fight the lies of are they really your friend, do they really care, did i make myself to look like a fool. so then you tend to want to hide away. you battle in your mind, why would anyone want you anyway. you battle rejection, and hope it all goes away. you spend your energy trying to please others only to feel unwanted. Insecurity is a dangerous foe. I feel like i am fighting a losing battle with it. I am afraid of what people may think of me, or i even question their intentions when they want to help. What is their motive and why are they being so nice.

Am i missing something here in life? Are there really people out there who care? How do you trust when you feel like it has been broken. It is obvious you can’t trust in the world or the government. You should be able to trust in God, it says so on all your money. Trusting God is interesting, He can be so complex, yet so simple. I think it is my brain the makes it complicated. I know that i Love God, but wonder if He loves me back. Kind of stupid huh. You would think that as a follower of Christ, i would be one of the most confident person out there. At times i need to be reassured. If anything it is nice to hear from God. Hey it’s me, how am i doing down here? Do you still love me? Please give me a some encouragement, a dream, a word something. What a silly person I am. I am not the sharpest tool in the shed and i get tired of being treated like that. How does one cope with feeling like you do everything wrong? How does one build up his self-esteem, his confidence. i tend to look at what is wrong more than what is right. I can tell you more about the mistakes i have made than all the good things i have done. That’s probably why i feel like the worst sinner ever. I just can’t shake it. Living in the past is not good. no wonder i feel like a miserable wretch at times. Alas, there is hope. With a world that is spinning down the toilet, there Is God. It’s the one thing that is for sure. I have to believe. where else can you go? I feel like God has driven me into a corner and there is nothing else but Him. Even then i feel like i am hanging by a string. When life takes us out of our norm and puts a crazy spin on it, where you don’t see what the future is like, the only thing you can cling to is God. I have to stay here and see how it is going to end. These are exciting times. i just seem to take on the stress and anxiety that goes along with it. If they were passing out awards for worry, i would win hands down. I will be okay. I like Old Gideon, he was lacking in a lot of the same issues i am. He was hiding in a wine press, when the angel appeared. he thought of himself as the lowest and weakest, but God could see his true worth. Gideon you might man of valor. Yet Gideon had to throw out a couple of fleeces. still had doubt when God reduced his army to less than three hundred, then God asked him if he needed a prophecy. Gideon said yes, so God sent him into the enemies camp and he received one. I would have given up. Here we are in the camp of the enemy now, the battle is real and the last word i have received is, “God will provide your manna”. so everyday I am expecting something, and of course the enemy is right there speaking against it. I will believe God, what he says he will do and what he says about me. He knows my heart.

Hallelujah…..

I did my best, it wasn’t much, I couldn’t feel, so I tried to touch
I’ve told the truth, I didn’t come to fool you
And even though it all went wrong
I’ll stand before the Lord of Song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah…Leonard Cohen

Mistakes, we all make them. What if they really aren’t mistakes but a part of just learning. Learning how to do some or not do something. Who’s to say which way is right and which way is not. There is a thousand ways to reach a destination. One foot, one step at a time. Joy in the journey, isn’t that what it is really about. Lately it seems that the joy has been stolen. the enemy has come to steal the life right out of you. You have to be on guard against the works of the devil. For some, walking with the devil has become natural. The endless pursuit of power, money and prestige will do you in. you will never be satisfied. Look what’s going on now. people who committed crimes for money and power. Sold people and children into slavery or sacrificed them. Very Old testament. It’s hard to believe in this day and age when we think that people are decent and have our best interest in mind are killing our way of life for their own gain. there are so many in cahoots with them that they will do anything to protect their hides. spread a virus to rig an election to cover up their crimes. lie through their teeth to make themselves sound like the good guys. take their crimes and say that the other guy committed them. Then fool half the nation into thinking that they are the good guys and the other guy is not. You can’t make this up, it would make a great novel if it wasn’t true. Remember the enemy came to kill, steel, and destroy. He will us any one and anything and try to slander and eliminate those who know and tell the truth. Then corrupt in infiltrate every form of media and entertainment to hide the truth. Lies, where do they end, then lie about what you lied about to cover up a previous lie. In this day and age you can’t hide anything. there is no privacy. we devices in our home and cars. we care a mini computer with us everywhere you go. they track you shopping, your habits and we all take pictures of our life and show it off to the world. Hey look at me!!! If you want to know the truth, you can find it. The trouble is, who’s truth? can you trust them? is their source reliable? is it just hearsay? Who can you trust? sometimes i cannot even trust myself. I know what my human nature is like.

In this time and age i find myself turning more to God. I think i have been praying more and seeking Him more. Listening and discerning. I am not an expert, but where else can you turn? where else can you go? who else offers eternal life. The road with God is not easy. There are many battles and obstacles along the. pitfalls and snares and just everyday life. I think God must have some plan for me, because i feel like the enemy is always trying to trip me up. Take every thought captive. Life just happens. Nobody is perfect and no one has arrived yet. After being off of work for so long i think that i have been come more introverted than ever before. I can over think and over analyze ever situation. Let me tell you that can get you into a lot of mental trouble and anxiety. you mind can run in to places that you really don’t want to go. it’s not easy. But i have to believe that we are here for such a time as this. Prayer is more powerful than you think. Find out what God wants you to pray and pray it. You have Jesus and The Holy spirit praying with you. It’s like praying in stereo. God is winning. Your prayers are more important than you think. If you don’t know what to pray just ask.

“But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him. “This, then, is how you should pray:

“‘Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
your kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us today our daily bread.
And forgive us our debts,
as we also have forgiven our debtors.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from the evil one.’

For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins…..Matthew 6

You can’t go wrong with that prayer. Keep praying, don’t let up. I am impatient and everyday hoping for something to happen. Everything is in God’s timing and will come to pass when it is right. until then don’t give up hope and don’t give up the fight. As i have said a hundred times, only 1/3 of the angels feel from heaven, so they are outnumbered 2 to 1. And we have God the Father, Jesus and The Holy Spirit. They going to win and captives will be set free.

Spy Vs. Spy?

It is hard to believe in this day and age where people go to war over who is running for president. I just heard that someone who was canvasing the neighborhood for one political person was so harassed that he had to call the police for help. What weird times we live in. it seems like it has boiled down to good verses evil. people are picking sides for a battle and there are people getting hurt. i wonder when people decide to choose a side if they even know what they are signing up for? there has been battles for centuries and who is to say what side is right and what side is wrong. I am choosing God’s side. you can’t loose, and there is life in everything he does. I have never seen anything like this. What is it going to be like when one side looses. will there be a war. You have to discern what is happening here. There is a bigger picture. God is in control, but the enemy doesn’t want you to think that. The enemies weapons are fear, anger, and hatred. He will do anything to throw you off your game. People are biting on it too, the media spreads its filth all over you. you are getting puked on with lies and you don’t even know it. then in turn we puke it on someone else and the next thing you know we are all believing a bunch of crap and we are so far from the truth we don’t even know what is going on. Then we draw up sides and we fight from what we think is truth and get in so deep that we don’t even find out what is actually true. we will fall for anything that makes us feel good about ourselves, even if it is not true.

Some of us are different than that. We don’t fall for anything. We know in our hearts what is true and what is truth. God is in our hearts and we have the Holy Spirit. It is good to question and find out the truth. God is where we draw our strength and wisdom from. You have not because you ask not. I have asked. Not that i am the wisest person on earth. In fact i have screwed up my life more than anything. i am thankful to be a live and i don’t think i would have made it this far without Him. Hopefully i have learned from my mistakes in life, and i will make more. I haven’t arrived yet and i am not a Holy man. I am just a man who has realized that life without God is impossible. I hope to hear well done good and faithful servant. but for right now i just trust. How do those without the Lord get by? How can you not have faith, hope and love. I may not be super Christian, but i am doing what i can.

Ephesians 6,” Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.” And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;” Be Strong in the Lord.

Today in my spirit i heard, “You have to stand up for what you believe.” I had to question myself, what do i believe? You have to make a choice, you have everything in you and you are equipped. and remember, Psalm 23, “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.” You have a great cloud of witnesses cheering you on, you have God the Father, Jesus, and the holy Spirit cheering you on. Two thirds of the angels are also there. You cannot lose with God.

Where was i going with all this? Don’t be overwhelmed or have anxiety. Goodness will prevail. Search for God while it is still called today. Keep oil in your lamps. God loves you with an everlasting love. Choose life. I believe that Jesus is Lord and he has come from the Father above to set the captives free. He sent His Holy Spirit as a comforter and a guide to help us along the way.

Let the midnight special, shine a light on me..

I am finding that the hardest thing to do is to step away from the computer. Everywhere you turn you see the same old thing. Everyone has an opinion how things should be. At times i can’t even think straight. The world is getting weirder everyday. Riots here, protests there, this town is burning, that town is burning and so on. Wear your mask or you’ll get the plague. conform to society even if you don’t want to. The virus is causing our business to lose money, guess what, you’re fired. We need to let you go, so others can keep their job. Then you think you’ll get unemployment and that is not going as expected. As my wife said two steps forward and three steps back. when you think it is going good, something comes along and kicks you in the crotch and says, not today, you can’t get ahead. then is steam rolls into a bunch of petty things and you are on the edge of madness. The dog barking at 5 am, or the shade not working, or just something as simple as putting something on the shelf in the garage. FYI, don’t wear your flip flops while getting on a step ladder, your toes will catch on the edge of the ladder, the ladder will tip over while your toe stays in the same place. uffda…

It’s not only that, it’s other things that go on in your mind.  You wonder if you’ll find work, what am i going to do now, will i pick the right thing? then you find you don’t know what to do with yourself. sure there are projects, but you find you cannot spend the money like you used to. So you are on a budget. You find things that you can do that take up your time, like playing Nintendo, you can only do that for a short time and then you feel guilty for wasting half your day. My wife is good at finding me things to do. i have done more cleaning and laundry in the last two months than ever. Sometimes i just don’t feel like doing anything. I am very good at sitting here and feeling sorry for myself. riding a wild train of thought from to people like me, to what do people think to God are you still there. I do get plenty of exercise everyday, walking the dog to wrestling with doubt and self worth to painting the house, just the other day i think i made twenty trips up and down the stairs. I am not a train wreck, it just feels that way some days. Little things give me anxiety and i find myself doing a lot of deep sighing lately.  I think i asked God for a suddenly moment, and this is not what i expected. I have to admit i do not miss the stress and anxiety that came from that last position. I told God that i just wanted to be happy. I get to go to the dentist again.

In all i shouldn’t really complain. I am not dead, i have a house and food to eat. I have God in my life, or at times i think i do.  It’s like hey God, i am down here, can you see me? I am the one jumping up and down trying to get you attention. Oh you do see me? Can you help me with this next phase of my life? I really don’t have a clue to what i am doing. I am afraid if i do do something, i will make a mess of it and i will again have to ask for more help. So i guess i am just waiting. The world wants you to stay busy, it’s like look, Jesus is coming we better get busy doing the right thing. Whatever that may be. What if God really does have everything under control. What if really does want to be your provider. To provide manna in the desert, or be an oasis in the tough times to give you a cool drink. What if we are just making, trust God, harder than it really should be? i know that i can run off in a thousand different tangents in my mind and none of them will be correct. I think, i think too much. Too much time on my hands. I am okay, or i think i am okay, How do you know?  what do you compare it to? who’s to say? Am i crazy? I long for days when life was simple, when i thought i had friends, where did all those people go?  *Disclaimer*,,there is nothing wrong with us, this is just things i think about***. I had to add that in there, sometimes it helps to just get things out of your head.

What will the future bring? Who knows, i am just thankful every day that i wake up. i want to be in a good mood, but it doesn’t always happen. God is still up there and His throne, building a place for us to live. I am just down here trying to get it right, whatever that looks like. It would be funny when I get to heaven and old St. Peter really does say that what we thought was sin, or what we thought was wrong really didn’t matter.  We will find out that politics and power and prestige really didn’t matter. How much money i had in the bank, or what kind of house i lived in, what kind of car i drove, clothes i wore, or what i had for supper. How much energy i wasted to try to look good, or be liked. What really mattered was that I loved God and I loved others.The world will make you happy for a very fleeting moment, then it will fade away and you will be looking for that next moment, but God will make you happy for eternity  with an everlasting joy.  Some days i just need a spiritual hug, a pat on the back and some reassurance that it will all work out fine. today is one of those days.

 

i wonder why…..

I don’t understand why we go through things in life. Why life altering changes happen. Why it has to be so stressful, well at least in my mind anyway. Why is it the hard way. Why do people have to be difficult. What is the purpose of all this. Why is it hard to be happy. Why is it no one understands, Why do we get up and do it day after day after day? This is not what i envisioned life to be like when i was younger. the why question never gets answered here on earth. I ask god what is going on and i hear silence. yet everyday i get up and put my trust in God and try again. am i winning or losing. Does it really matter what i do as long as i still trust God. Does he trust me. How can you ask for help in one breath and in the next stumble through the darkness. How can a double minded man be trusted. What are we really doing here. Why is it such a difficult time. why now?

Pandemic, social unrest, political wars, what is the purpose of all this. Life was going along fine and then you get blindsided and have to move into survival mode. I want to vote myself off the island and have some peace. Why is the peace of God so hard to find. all that goes on in the world right now is giving me anxiety, why? Shouldn’t i be trusting god’s plan? Why i don’t even know what it is half the time. it seems like i am running through life, unsure what is even going on. Am i doing the right thing, do i even know what i am doing and can i be sure that i even make the right choices? What is going on?How does one really make themselves happy? it is only a temporary thing and then it fades and you end up looking for something else to fill that void. Heck i can’t remember the last time i was really happy. A good day for me is too just make it from sunrise to sunset. I should be happy with that. There is always something or someone out to steal your joy, why do we let them? why do we give the power of our feelings to others? why why why?

It is time to take back and to fight for what is rightfully ours. it is time to say to the enemy no more. Why? because i belong to God. Everyday i have to remind myself, hoping that i will get it right. Whatever getting it right means.  God please give me the strength to get through another day. A day of deadlines, spreadsheets, conference calls and people who are not willing to take responsibility for their own actions. A day where the world doesn’t shut up enough to listen to someone else.  Again Lord I thank you for another day where if it wasn’t for your grace and mercy, i don’t know how else we would survive.

yes i wrote this

There’s a day coming where we can go outside without a mask on. The Lone Ranger would not like that. A day when the stress will be gone. A day where we can get close to our loved ones, where we can great each other with a hug and a Holy kiss. these are strange times indeed.  I have never believed i would see such a thing as this. No toilet paper or fresh hamburger. Where we plan our meals so we can have an abundance of leftovers for the week. Work, who would believe that i of all people would be an essential employee. On the front lines, delivering medical equipment to those that are in need. It all doesn’t seem real. This is not how i imagined it would be. Sure who doesn’t enjoy an end of the world movie, a disaster flick. action and adventure around every corner, one perilous catastrophe after another, with a nick of time escape. What do we do, sit at the window and watch our neighbors get close to each other. Wondering when this unseen enemy is going to strike.

In the mix of it all we are at the time of Easter. The time when the Lord thought of us and our freedom. How he takes care of us. I am amazed that i and my wife are ones to continue working. He has supplied us with an abundance of necessities. My wife couponed for years and created a stock pile, i feel like God started to meet our needs way back then. He nudged us to go shopping and load up our freezers twice before all this took place. He still continues to meet our needs. Showing us where to cut back, and what we do have. We have a home, electricity, running water and so on. I think he even put the right people in place for such a time as this.

At times i feel so undeserving or worried or stressed. you never know what’s around each corner or when the next shoe is going to drop. Stress and worry are just cheap budget items from hell anyway. Why not choose to be happy and joyful, be thankful. there is so much that is out of our control. I feel like part of being a christian is for such a time as this. to instill hope, to encourage and to pray. I can see how easy it would be to fall into the enemies hands and his traps. We need each other more than ever, and we need to support and encourage one another, daily.  I know i like to hear good things about myself, who doesn’t. I am easily stress and have this habit of worrying. Anxiety is not too far behind either. I am not sure when they started coming around, but it seems like they have been there a long time. Yes, i am also insecure. what a lethal combination. it would drive most people crazy, and i probably do. There are good days too.

That’s probably why God invaded my life one day. He knew that i would need Him. and then some. I wasn’t much of a challenge for God’s brilliance.  He just showed up one night at a small church i went to and said, I choose you and now you are mine. The next week in worship He revealed himself to me, I will never forget the vision i had. The Lord hovered right above me and it was so real. I just worshiped even more. he never said get your act together and follow me, come as you are, you are just right. So i did. Then i think i got thrown into a closet and beaten up, and i think i am still getting beat up. It’s like how much longer are going to do this god thing. one trial after another, at times i can forget what joy is or what it is like to be happy. i just shake my head and wonder why. I go to bed and hope for a goodnight’s sleep and sometimes i get woken up and work invades my thoughts, it’s times like this i just turn to prayer, sometimes it helps me to get back to sleep. i love the nights that i dream deep colorful dreams. dreams with meaning and purpose behind them. I hope they are from God.  A lot of dreams about building. i am not sure what is going on, but i trust God. who else has life and hope.

Just so you know, you are doing a good job, you do matter and you are important. God has you and he won’t let you go. sure there are going to be tough days, but there is more good days coming. Mercy and grace are going to follow you all of the days of your life. You are loved and nothing can take that away.

Fear….I am sick of it

That’s right, I am sick of fear and the way it is being spread. I can’t believe how many are falling for it. Everywhere you go it is being talked about. well how about this, Fear the Lord your God, work out your salvation with fear and trembling….

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand….Isaiah 41:10

You will laugh at destruction and famine, and need not fear the wild animals….Job 5:22

Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea…..Psalm 46:2

Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil…..Proverbs 3:7

I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him…..Ecclesiastes 3:14

“Do not call conspiracy everything this people calls a conspiracy; do not fear what they fear, and do not dread it….Isaiah 8:12

Should you not fear me?” declares the Lord. “Should you not tremble in my presence? I made the sand a boundary for the sea, an everlasting barrier it cannot cross. The waves may roll, but they cannot prevail; they may roar, but they cannot cross it….Jeremiah 5:22

The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.”…..Romans 8:15

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love….1 John 4:18

So do not fear, do not bit on the lies of fear or you will be sucked into their trap and worry and anxiety will set in. i just watched a video where people were buying up all the toilet paper.  I have never seen this much fear spread so fast. you can’t watch television of go on facebook without seeing something, it’s spreading like wild fire. so many have bitten onto it. it kinda makes me angry. Just stop and say a prayer and trust Jesus. He cares about your needs more than you do. There will be plenty of toilet paper to go around.